Saturday, December 31, 2011

Musing on lessons learned in 2011 and welcoming a New Year!

2011 brought challenges into my world that were bigger than me! Much bigger. However, the challenges were not too big for my Father God to handle.

Recently, life has taken on a different rhythm. Slow but steady... I'm thankful for a job that brings in a more substantial income for me. I'm adjusting, stretching and growing, daily. Debt is being reduced. I was able to purchase a calendar for Christmas for each family, in my immediate family. I created the calendar through Lulu. It's beautiful and a work of heart that is a blessing to share.

Raindrops sparkling on my window

I dislike winter. It's dark sooner, often cold and dreary and I find myself cocooning, rather than getting out into the world around me. One night this past week, it had been raining, but the sun shone through the clouds in the morning, sparkling and glistening, a gift. I smiled, grabbing my camera, to capture the moment.

Ann VosKamp repeatedly blesses me by helping me remember to be in the moment and count the blessings every moment brings. I started 2011 reading Ann's book, "One Thousand Gifts." Ann reminds us that we have moments, microscopic moments, fleeting moments are all we have. Holy moments... Ann says, "You've got to find a way to stay fully awake! She dares us to live fully, right where we are.! 

Through Jesus we are able to live fully, 
being joyful right where we are.

In March, I took a contract recruiting job that seemed like my ticket out of a frustrating and stressful inside sales job, however, in a very short period of time, it ended just as I arrived home after an amazing vacation in early May to see one of my sons who lives in Costa Rica. 

Seeing this time as an opportunity to grow my photography business, I switched into high gear and began to advertise my Wingdreamer Photography.  I did weddings, lifestyle portraits, and reached out for photo shoots where ever I could find them. 

Something didn't feel quite right, yet I kept trying, praying, crying out and putting one foot in front of the other.  Long story short, I almost totally ran out of money, lost my home, (except the people who bought my home, are renting it back to me so I'm still here!!) I had $1.70 left in my checking account when my first paycheck with my new company was deposited. I am so very aware of God's presence, His provision, but most of all His love, hovering nearby. 

I didn't always walk through this challenging time standing strong and solid. I fell down. I skinned my knees. I whined and sometimes I cried. However, Jesus kept working on me. It's His job to perfect us. He's good at it. He promises to complete the work He started in us. 

I'm so thankful that I can also celebrate my singleness at the end of this year. Back at the end of September, I sensed the Lord calling me into His "Ark" for a time away. My world was being flooded and He lovingly wooed me into His ark to work on my heart and change me. Though I hadn't realized it, my longing for a husband, my neediness in that area, was at the level of idolatry. I desired a husband more than I desired to know Jesus. It was an obsession, though I didn't see it. 

During the 44 days and nights in the "Ark" of God's presence, much was accomplished in my heart. (I spent 44 days and nights, rather than 40, because it bumped up against my 11th "anniversary" of being single again.) A contentedness came that stilled my heart. A peace permeated me through and through. I'm happy in my singleness like I've never experienced in the 11 years I've been single again. 
Woooo hoooo! 

So, I end 2011 and dance into 2012 a free woman, with a smile that lights up my face, a good job, bills paid, a front porch to sit on, though I no longer have the responsibility of my home, and you know what, I danced a bit and spun around in circles at some of the Christmas parties I attended...(I really can't dance very well, you know, 
two left feet...)   

Today, a friend joined me at a nearby park and we walked about 5 miles. It was a gorgeous December day here in Georgia. We've been told that the cold winter air is on it's way, but this afternoon brought sunshine sparkling on the lake as we walked. 

Rushing home after the walk with my friend, I grabbed my camera and headed back out to a spot I've been wanting to go to experience a sunset, to attempt to capture a sunset with my camera's eye. I wasn't disappointed. Thank you Jesus! 

As 2011 soon fades away and 2012 unfolds, fresh and new, fragrant as a flower, I quietly anticipate and through trust that has grown stronger, I look forward to what our Father God has in store. My times are in His hands. 
My path will lead me home.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Beautiful Light

We are told to let our light shine, and if it does, we won't need to tell anybody it does. Lighthouses don't fire cannons to call attention to their shining- they just shine. Dwight L. Moody.

"Beautiful light is born of darkness, so the faith that springs from conflict is often the strongest and the best." Turnbull, R.
John 3:19-21
This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.

Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God."

May we quietly, gently, walk in the light, His light.


Looking up, into His light...




Sunday, December 18, 2011

O Holy Night

O Holy Night...

When we walk daily
with our God,
our Savior, Jesus,
every day
every moment

Though we often don't understand
the details of our lives
and why "things" happen
the way they do,
and when they do,
and how they do...
God understands.
He is in each moment
with us.
Because our Creator 
knows and understands us,
He knows the end from the beginning,
He knows each moment
is holy...
He longs to dwell within us
and He desires to reveal 
the holiness of every moment;
the holiness of sunrise and sunset,
the holiness of birth, of life, of death...
the holiness of really loving those around us,
the holiness of marriage and becoming one,
the holiness of the humble dailiness of this life we live...
the holiness of this Christmas season...
the holiness of living in this manger-like world,
so simple, so gutsy, so real...

The son of God was birthed in love, upon the hay...
a gift delivered from heaven through Mary, as she lay
trusting in the words from God, 
delivered through an angel's visitation,
followed by songs of praise and adoration
for a God who'd come to earth
to live as a man, his blood poured out
so we'd experience rebirth,
A holy night, to bring about
transformation, heavenly
to fulfill our destiny,
God's plan unfolding, perfectly. 



O holy night, the stars are brightly shining;
It is the night of the dear Savior’s birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope, the weary soul rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

Led by the light of faith serenely beaming,
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand.
So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming,
Here came the wise men from Orient land.
The King of kings lay thus in lowly manger,
In all our trials born to be our Friend!
He knows our need—to our weakness is no stranger.
Behold your King; before Him lowly bend!
Behold your King; before Him lowly bend!

Truly He taught us to love one another;
His law is love and His Gospel is peace.
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother
And in His Name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy Name!
Christ is the Lord! O praise His name forever!
His power and glory evermore proclaim!
His power and glory evermore proclaim!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Unfolding purpose


I'm excited to be going with a friend to Jeremy Cowart's LifeFinder Tour down in Decatur Georgia today. I must sleep

I am supposed to be at this event for some reason, yet unknown to me. I believe it has something to do with my unfolding purpose in life...the direction to move toward with my photography. God knows. He desires for me to know. It's important. I get that.

It's getting closer to Christmas day. I want to celebrate His light during my days. The light of Jesus shines so incredibly bright during these days. May His gifts of photography and writing shine through me...every day. May His gifts of encouragement shine through me.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

We're always being worked on....

As humans,
we are 
being worked on
God loves us...
so deeply
He won't give up
on us. 
 Whether we are 
"jobfull" (like me) 
and being s-t-r-e-t-c-h-e-d
in every area
of my life...
whether we are
or healthy,
or married,
or energetic,
a morning person
or a night owl,
a millionaire
or a paupernaire,
or full of joy,
or in love,
or a 10,
we are all
a work in 
Our Father God
will use every
of our lives
to bring out
our weaknesses
our strengths
and cause us to 
The good news
He WILL finish the work
He loves us...

 Amazing, isn't He?

...being confident of this very thing, that he who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Jesus Christ: Philippians 1:6

Barnes' Notes on the Bible Will perform it - Margin, "Or, finish" The Greek word - ἐπιτελέσει epitelesei - means that he would carry it forward to completion; he would perfect it. It is an intensive form of the word, meaning that it would be carried through to the end.

God abandons nothing that he undertakes. There are no unfinished worlds or systems; no half-made and forsaken works of His hands. There is no evidence in His works of creation of change of plan, or of having forsaken what He began from disgust, or disappointment, or lack of power to complete them. Why should there be in the salvation of the soul?

Sunday, December 11, 2011

My heart is heavy...

A man I worked for at a previous job, is sitting at his wife's side in the hospital tonight. Today is day 17 in ICU. He said, she may leave there, and then again, maybe not. She needs a miracle so she can walk out of there, or perhaps the miracle is that her spirit is allowed to leave, ushered by her heavenly Father... She has been through so much for years. So much pain and suffering... more than enough for one woman. He asked for prayer. He said, "Please pray she doesn't hurt. She has had so much pain now, for so long." I can see her spirit rising, smiling...moving from earthly, to heavenly, dancing into the arms of Jesus.

I want to share the prayer I prayed, and emailed to him tonight. Perhaps it may lift your chin and your heart.

May your heavenly Daddy, wrap His arms around Sally and you and hold you extra close during these days.
May you sense His light filling this darkness, like a storm that threatens.
May hope lift your chin up so you can see His face, and know He cares.
May the love of God, of family and friends bring warmth in the midst of pain.
May you be able to lean into the Lord and find rest. 
May you both hear His voice, whispering love, long...
May Sally rest in the arms of the Lord and find peace.
May you be reminded during this time, that we are not home yet. That though we have tribulation and suffering, that He has overcome this world.
When life doesn't make sense, may you be able to be still and know that He is still God...
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
The skin between this world and the heavens is incredibly thin. If you listen, you can hear heaven's voice, humming, singing, joyfully celebrating... If you open eyes, fully, you can see heaven sparkling, reflecting light like a diamond... If your heart is open, you can feel heaven's pure warmth surrounding you, like a loving embrace...If you allow Him, Jesus will lift you up, away from this earthly realm, as He sets your feet to dancing...heavenward.......

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Offering Thanks in the Midst of Change

So, goodbye 
to extended hours
to write and create.
I'm saying hi
to a cubical 
and a job as of late.

My heart is struggling, 
heavy in the midst of change.
so much juggling
as life is rearranged...
My desire is to sing out gratitude
in the midst of every day.
May I put on Christ's attitude
so it shows in all I say.

I'm grateful for a paycheck at the end of each week.
Thankful for sunrises painted across the sky as I drive to work.
Grateful for Sue Monk Kidd's book, "First Light", on CD to listen to while I drive.
Thankful for patience and flexibility to deal with frustrations at work and on the road. 
Thankful for over-the-counter meds to help with UTI symptoms until I can get to a Dr.
Grateful for Sterling, my Toyota; "she" gets me to work and back in comfort and good gas mileage.
Thankful for my Father God who doesn't give up on me. 
Grateful that He finishes the work He's started in me. 

Thursday, December 1, 2011


So many aspects of my life are changing, 
all at the same time. 

Life's priorities are rearranging 
 and nothing seems to rhyme. 

I'm hoping and praying I'm on the right track,
 as I lay down every care.

I know deep inside, God's got my back
and He's heard every prayer.

He'll shape and mold my perspective
on life as it unfolds.

I rest under His wings, protective;
trusting Him, I behold
Him and I am changed.