Sunday, October 30, 2011

Day.....

It is Sunday night and almost 11:00 as I write. My eye lids are very h-e-a-v-y. I can pretty well guarantee this will not be my best writing... 

Somehow with my crazy schedule, I've gotten off in the counting of the 44 days and nights with the Lord. Actually tomorrow, October 31st will be the 44th day. A day to open the doors and windows of His "ark" and feel the breeze and check the level of the water from the floods, so to speak. I will write more tomorrow about what has been going on in my heart and life.


Camping with the Echo group was enjoyable...chilly temps (33 degrees) this morning when I woke up. The cold temperatures were more than made up for by the warmth of the fellowship. I slept in the backseat of my car. Why you ask? I thought it would be warmer than a tent on the cold ground. I was right. I was uncomfortable, but warm. 

We worshiped around the campfire, hiked to waterfalls, built new friendships and refreshed the old ones. We cooked together and cleaned and worked as a team. We shared openly about our beliefs and thoughts about God's Word. The main topic of discussion was scriptures about The world. Being in it, but not of it. Not being polluted by the world. I want to study it more myself and write more about it. 

I took quite a few photos while at Unicoi. On the way home I couldn't resist stopping for more photos of picturesque spots. I had one very enjoyable surprise that I took many photos of. Photos and story to follow.

For now, sleep is the topic of discussion...as much I as desire to be creative, it's not there...zzzzzzz

Friday, October 28, 2011

Day Thirty-Seven - So much more in store...

I believe we are led divinely in the little things in our lives as well as major events. 

I was supposed to be camping tonight, but it's raining and it's going to get really cold in Helen Georgia, so here I am, warm in my bed, writing. (I'll join the others in the morning for "cowboy coffee" by the campfire!)

"I have so much more in store for you, if you trust me. There will be times that I ask you to do things that you may not want to do." ... "You shouldn't marry Paul." "You have a very tender heart. How many men have you fallen in love with since you were 16?"  "It's not my desire and will for a couple to be unequally matched. He doesn't believe in me. He will come to resent your faith in me. I have many wonderful things in store for you." These quotes are from Bruce Marchiano. His Jesus role in the movie, "The Encounter" touched me recently when I watched it and now again tonight. 


As a habit I suppose, but tonight, divinely led, I checked FaceBook for updates. Someone's post about Bruce Marchiano's role in The Encounter, caught my eye and I found myself watching a portion of the movie again. Once again, my heart burned within me and tears welled up and my heart was affected. 

I dated and fell in love with a man and we weren't equally matched, spiritually. I really grew to love this man and thought that he would come to know the Lord and we would marry. It didn't happen. Bruce Marchiano's words spoke to me so strongly tonight. God has so many wonderful things in store for me. Even more wonderful than what I thought I could have with that man I fell in love with. 

I will remember this. As I revel in the peace and contentment I am experiencing these days in my singleness, I will remember those words.

Again I come back to this scripture. It just fits for right now. "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen." Ephesians 3:20 and 21

"You know, everyday I get millions of complaints about this world. The greed and selfishness, poverty and starvation, murders, wars and abuse of children. I hardly recognize this place; it bares so little resemblance to the garden I created for you. But, it's not hell. Even now there's sunshine on a spring day, starry nights and desert sky, a gentle breeze on a summer afternoon and the smell of flowers and songs of birds...and people who are willing to lend a helping hand to the helpless and there is love. There is still love." 



These quotes are also from Bruce Marchiano in the movie, "The Encounter." I am thankful for the sense of God's presence and love I've enjoyed twice now, through this movie. So, I share. (You can watch The Encounter on Netflix streaming movies and the link below will take you to YouTube videos of the movie. The particular link below is the one I watched tonight and where the quotes came from. 

May you have the power, with all the saints, to be able to grasp how wide and how long, how high and how deep is the love of Christ. And to know this love though it is too great to understand fully... Ephesians 3:18 & 19.

From Clarke's Commentary on the Bible: The first word, εξισχυσητε , from εξ, intensive, and ισχυω, to be strong, signifies that they might be thoroughly able, by having been strengthened with might, by God's power. 

The second word καταλαβεσθαι, from κατα, intensive, and λαμβανω , to take, catch, or seize on, may be translated, that you may fully catch, take in, and comprehend this wonderful mystery of God. The mind must be rendered apt, and the soul invigorated, to take in and comprehend these mysteries.


May we fully catch, take in and comprehend this wonderful mystery of God... his love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UuYjWRYFakw&feature=related

Day Thirty-Six - More than we can ask or imagine

A very special day to celebrate! A very short post tonight as I am worn out from a photo shoot tonight for the Howl-O-Ween Party for the Atlanta Dog Spa in Midtown, Atlanta.

Today a large, global company offered me a contract position which they hope, and I hope, will become long term. I will be a sourcer/recruiter for them. I am very very thankful and grateful that God has blessed me with this opportunity!!! The pay rate was more than I expected. 

Ephesians 3:20 & 21 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

I also want to mention that as each day has gone by, I grow more and more content in my life and in my singleness. 

Today, in my celebrating what God has done through this challenging job search, I called a previous boyfriend who is still special to me, even now. He celebrated with me and he inspires me to continue to pursue my dream of growing my photography business and also to handle my finances correctly as I rebuild after these challenging times. He can speak on that subject; he is a millionaire. Not many people know that. I'm thankful he is my friend. 

Off to dreamland..... 

Wingdreamer

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Day Thirty-Five - Light



Ring the bells that still can ring 
Forget your perfect offering  
There is a crack in everything 
That's how the light gets in.  

Leonard Cohen - Anthem


Light. It causes darkness to leave. If light is present, then darkness can't share the same space. I don't know about you, but especially when it's so dark that I can't see what's right in front of my face, it's comforting to know that light dispels darkness. 
A candle, a match, a flashlight, 
campfire, halogen bulb or 
The Light of the World, 
all dispel darkness! 

The Light of the World, Jesus, 
is the only light that fully, 
permanently and forever will dispel darkness!

Jesus desires for us to walk in His light and not in darkness. Why would we want to walk in darkness anyway? 

Light in His Word

God said, let there be light.
It shined, brilliantly.
The sun rules day, the moon the night,
and stars give light upon the earth.

By day the LORD went ahead of them 
in a pillar of cloud
to guide them on their way 
and by night in a pillar of fire
to give them light, so that they could travel by day or night.

God said, my son will be the light 
of the world, He'll shine liberally.
You'll never need to walk in darkness
again for you have the light of life!

In His light, we see light,
His Word is a lamp unto our feet
that shines on our path.

Jesus' face shone like the sun 
and his clothes were as white as the light.

There will come a day when we'll
not need the sun or a lamp to see our way
for the Lord God will be our everlasting light.


For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, 
shined in our hearts, 
to give the light of the knowledge
of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

If we walk in the light
as He is in the Light,
we have fellowship with each other
and the blood of Jesus purifies us
from all sin.









Day Thirty-Four- Seeing Clearly




Can I trust what I'm perceiving 
during this season?
Maybe things aren't as they seem...
I'm just dust, but I'm believing
there's a reason
like a salmon, I can swim upstream...

Distractions, arrow-like, are aimed
at my heart
by snakelike enemy of my soul;
yet my very marrow has been claimed
as a work of art
made by God, I am whole!

My vision's blurry and unclear,
I often wonder
what's coming around the next bend...
I envision walking without fear
God's hand's under
 me, so I will transcend.

Wingdreamer


Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Day Thirty-Three - Working out



According to 1 Timothy 4:8, Physical exercise profits little... It's good for us and we feel better and we're healthier in general, however, the Greek words mean it profits to but a small extent. Profits little (πρὸς ὀλίγον ἐστὶν ὠφέλιμος)

The next part of that passage says "but godliness is profitable in all things, having promise of the life that now is, and of that which is to come." So, physical exercise helps to a small extent, especially compared to godliness and working out our salvation, with fear and trembling. Godliness is good now and in the life to come. 

The Geneva Study Bible puts it this way: Godliness consists in spiritual exercise, and not in outward strictness of life, which though it is something to be esteemed, if it is used correctly, yet it is in no way comparable with godliness. For it profits not in and of itself, but through the benefit of another; but godliness has the promise both of the present life, and of that which is to come." I like that. 

In Philippians 2:12 it says, "Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling," 

It is even clearer to me in the Amplified version, "Therefore, my dear ones, as you have always obeyed [my suggestions], so now, not only [with the enthusiasm you would show] in my presence but much more because I am absent, work out (cultivate, carry out to the goal, and fully complete) your own salvation with reverence and awe and trembling (self-distrust, [a]with serious caution, tenderness of conscience, watchfulness against temptation, timidly shrinking from whatever might offend God and discredit the name of Christ).

Those last words really speak to my spirit about my flesh and the attitude I should have toward my flesh... 
  • to not trust my flesh
  • to show serious caution
  • to have tenderness of conscience
  • to show watchfulness against temptation
  • to draw back from whatever might offend God and discredit the name of Jesus!

To shrink is defined as:
3. To draw back instinctively, as from something alarming; recoil.
4. To show reluctance; hesitate: shrink from making such a sacrifice.
 

The word fear, used in Philippians 2:12 is: (Strong's Concordance #5401)  fobov  //  phobos   //  fob'-os  //  from a primary phebomai (to be put in fear);

1) fear, dread, terror 

1a) that which strikes terror  

 The word tremble is: 5156   //  tromov  //  tromos   //  trom'-os  // from   5141  ; n m
AV - trembling 4, tremble +   2192  1; 5

1) a trembling or quaking with fear
2) with fear and trembling, used to describe the anxiety of one who distrusts his ability completely to meet all requirements, but religiously does his utmost to fulfill his duty.

I like what it says above: "the anxiety of one who distrusts HIS ABILITY completely to meet all requirements" however I don't agree with the part that says, "but religiously does his utmost to fulfill his duty." Why? Look at the next verse. Philippians 2:13 says, "It is God who works in you both to will and to do of His good pleasure." 

It is God. HE works in us, not us religiously doing our best to meet God's requirements. We will always fail on our own to work out our salvation. 

How very powerful, how very freeing, that it is God who works in us both to will and to do things that will bring Him pleasure! Ultimately, bringing Him pleasure, brings us pleasure.

To will comes from Strong's # 2309 thelō
1) to will, have in mind, intend
1a) to be resolved or determined, to purpose
1b) to desire, to wish
1c) to love
1c1) to like to do a thing, be fond of doing
1d) to take delight in, have pleasure

To do comes from: 1754   //  energew  //  energeo   //  en-erg-eh'-o  // AV - work 12, show forth (one's) self 2, wrought 1, be effectual 1,effectually work 1, effectual fervent 1, work effectually in 1, be might in 1, to do 1; 21

1) to be operative, be at work, put forth power
1a) to work for one, aid one
2) to effect
3) to display one's activity, show one's self operative 

It is interesting that the word energew  //  energeo   //  en-erg-eh'-o looks very similar to energy! 

The word rendered "good pleasure" - εὐδοκία eudokia - means "delight, good-will, favor;" then "good pleasure, purpose, will.

So, in other words, God works in us to give us the:
  • desire and the energy to please Him, to delight Him
  • The determination and the power to do what brings Him pleasure
  • The ability to take delight and pleasure to be at work pleasing Him, which brings His favor
Oh, God, I've tasted Your Words tonight,
they are so sweet. 
Your Words were found and I ate them
and they became for me the joy
and the delight of my heart!

"We will, but God works the will in us. We work, therefore, but God works the working in us" (Augustine).

Now days, not many of us quake in our boots about working out our salvation. Why is that? Now days so few long to bring God pleasure. Why? 

“If you don't feel strong desires for the manifestation of the glory of God, it is not because you have drunk deeply and are satisfied. It is because you have nibbled so long at the table of the world. Your soul is stuffed with small things, and there is no room for the great.” ― John Piper, A Hunger for God  

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Day Thirty-One - By Streams of Water



Psalm 1: 1-3


Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.
But his delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law he meditates day and night.
He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers. 

The leaves are withering and dying. It's a part of the changing of the seasons. We are in the midst of Autumn here in Georgia. It's one of the seasons I love and I thrive in. Summer heat has faded. There is a chill in the air. I pull a hoodie out of hiding and slip it on, taking the edge off the cool autumn breeze. 

May I be like a tree planted by streams of water.
May I yield fruit in season.
May my leaves not wither.
And whatever I do prosper. 

So, actually I want to be evergreen, right? 

Spontaneously, this afternoon, I took a walk to the pond nearby. It's on private property, but I know the owners, well at least enough that they won't shoot me for stepping onto their property to take a few photos and enjoy the Canada geese that love to fly in for a landing on their pond. 

As I was leaving the pond, I ran into the owner, Linda, walking Georgia, her dog. 12 year-old sweet Georgia. We exchanged pleasantries and talked a bit as we walked. I mentioned my desire to grow my photography business. Linda walked me around the corner, pointed at her friend Linda's house (yes, another Linda) and suggested I go and introduce myself to her since she caters weddings and events. So I did. She welcomed me, we exchanged information and said we'll meet next week. Serendipity!

Serendipity: In the simplest of words, it means a "happy accident" or a "pleasant surprise". I love how Jesus is the great networker and enjoys connecting people. There are no accidents in His world nor mine, since I know Him. 

May I (may you) be planted by streams of water.
May I yield fruit in season.
May my leaves not wither.
And whatever I do will prosper. 

May I be evergreen. 
May I embrace serendipity
when it's a gift from Him.


Marie 







Thursday, October 20, 2011

Day Thirty - A Lady in Waiting

I'm a lady in waiting...


Waiting on my Abba Father.

Waiting for His very best.

Gazing heavenward with ardor!

Gazing at my pure white dress, 

ready, without spot or any wrinkle;

heady with thoughts of union, holy

encircling embrace, a marriage symbol.

 Entering His tent oh so boldly

desiring to know and to be known. 

Inspiring Him to take me as his wife.

 Sealed with His holy kiss, I am not my own.

Healed by His love, I give Him my life.  


By A Lady in Waiting ~ Marie












Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Day Twenty-Nine - Becoming Becoming

be·com·ing
noun /biˈkəmiNG/ 
The process of coming to be something or of passing into a state

be·com·ing/biˈkəmiNG/

Adjective.

1. that suits or gives a pleasing effect or attractive appearance, as to a person or thing: a becoming dress; a becoming hairdo.
2. suitable; appropriate; proper: a becoming sentiment.
 
Through the changing power of the Holy Spirit, Jesus desires that I am, that we are, constantly becoming (noun) becoming (adjective).  Get it? 
 
Yes, we have a part in the process. Mainly choices. Do I choose to behold Him that He may change me into His image?  
 
Here are several versions of 2 Corinthians 3:18
English Revised Version 2 Corinthians 3:18
But we all, with unveiled face reflecting as a mirror the glory of the Lord, are transformed into the same image from glory to glory, even as from the Lord the Spirit.
 
Darby Bible Translation 2 Corinthians 3:18
But we all, looking on the glory of the Lord, with unveiled face, are transformed according to the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Lord the Spirit.

American Standard Version
But we all, with unveiled face beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are transformed into the same image from glory to glory, even as from the Lord the Spirit.

We become what we behold. I am becoming becoming as I choose to behold, to gaze on the glory of the Lord. I long for my ways and my walk with Jesus to be becoming of a savior like Jesus. He does the work, I choose to allow His work in my heart. 

Beholding (Webster's)
BEHO'LDING, ppr. Fixing the eyes upon; looking on; seeing.
1. Fixing the attention; regarding with attention.


As far as the job search, today I had a face-to-face interview with a large, global company for a recruiter opportunity. I believe it went well, but you never know until you have the offer in hand, right? I believe God knows where He wants me. Most days, I don't have a clue, unless He shows me. ;-)

I still wish and hope and pray that I could make a living by doing what I love, which is photography and writing. Who knows, that could be in my future. Right now, going back into recruiting can pay the bills. 

May we all be in the process of becoming becoming...






    

Monday, October 17, 2011

Day Twenty-Eight - Porches



Aaah, porches. I believe I could just about live on my porch, well most of the time. Recently I thought I might lose my home to foreclosure. I told the folks at Bank of America they could take my home, but please leave me the porch! (If you haven't been reading my blog for a while, it turns out, the people who bought my home are willing to rent it back to my son and I! Tonight I truly celebrate the fact I am still sitting on my porch!! We closed on Friday October 14th.)

My porch is my sanctuary. It is where I find solace in the midst of this noisy world. (With the exception of when Baily howls and barks. Baily is the neighbor's dog and he howls because he is hungry or lonely and longing for the human touch. A warm hand to rub his ears or brush his shiny coat and speak lovey dovey words to him. He howls because he doesn't receive a loving touch very often, at all. Well, right now, as a single-again woman with a hopeful romantic heart, I can relate!)

So, back to my porch. Tonight there is such peace on my porch, watching last light, pink slowly fading, listening to the sweetness of night sounds, like music, filling the air...like praises to God... my heart, filled with praise, because Jesus has been with me through the struggles and is with me here, on the porch. I imagine, He likes porches too. More than that though, He just likes my company... and yours.

In God's Word, it talks a bit about porches. It seems that most homes had porches and even temples had porches. For some reason, there is a lot of talk about the measurements of the porches. What could that mean? God is a numbers kind of God. He even has a book called Numbers in the Old Testament. Details matter to Him? Perhaps that is it. He knows the number of hairs on my head. On yours.


For the record, my front porch is 26 feet by 9 and a half feet and it is covered. Drenching rain or sunny skies, I am on my porch. I am drawn to my porch. Like moth to flame. Jesus meets me here.

The Bible speaks of weeping between porch and altar in Joel 2:17. A few thoughts come to mind as I ruminate on this. The altar, in biblical times, was the place where sacrifices were made. There were altars of burnt offerings and altars of incense. Psalm 141: 2 says, "Let my prayer be accepted as sweet-smelling incense in your presence. Let the lifting up of my hands in prayer be accepted as an evening sacrifice." Perhaps the porch was a place of preparation? 

In the Jamieson-Fausset-Brown Bible Commentary, it shares, "The suppliants thus were to stand with their backs to the altar on which they had nothing to offer, their faces towards the place of the Shekinah presence." 

Truly, none of us have anything to offer of ourselves... yet the truth is, we are to offer our very self. We are to turn our faces toward the place where the Shekinah glory dwells.

(In Revelation 21:22, the phrase "glory of God" in The Kingdom Interlinear Translation of the Greek Scriptures is rendered "God's SH'KHINAH" in the Jewish New Testament.

"I saw no temple in the city, for ADONAI [YEHOVAH], God of heaven's armies, is its Temple, as is the Lamb [Christ]. The city has no need for the sun or the moon to shine on it, because GOD'S SH'KHINAH gives it light, and its lamp is the Lamb."
The word most certainly is derived from "shakan," and whoever first used the word "Shekinah" coined it as a substantive (noun form) from the verbal forms used to describe the "abiding, dwelling, or habitation" of the physical manifestations of YEHOVAH God described in Exodus 24:16, 40:35 and Numbers 9:17-18 -- and various other places where "shakan" is used. http://hope-of-israel.org.nz/glory.htm)

It is said that the area between the porch and the altar was enclosed on two sides. It seemed to be a place of prayer. It is here that the priests with their faces toward the Holy of Holies and the temple which He had filled with His glory, were to weep. Tears are a gift from God and aren't you glad?

There, between the porch and the altar, they wept their prayers, "Spare your people, O LORD. Don't let the people who belong to you become a disgrace. Don't let the nations ridicule them. Why should people ask, 'Where is their God?'" 

Yes, and I pray spare us God!



κλαίω to weep, lament, wail (2799 is the Strong's Concordance number)
κλαίω to sob, i.e. wail aloud (whereas 1145 is rather to cry silently)
Derivation: of uncertain affinity;
KJV Usage: bewail, weep.
 
Thayer: 1) to mourn, weep, lament
1a) weeping as the sign of pain and grief for the thing signified (i.e. for the pain and grief)
1b) of those who mourn for the dead
2) to weep for, mourn for, bewail, one
To wail aloud. Wow... how many of us weep and wail, ALOUD? We might be heard and what would 'they' think? I know I have, at times, wept aloud in my car or in the privacy of my home. Desperate prayers, between porch and altar. 
I also have held back, concerned what others might think if they heard me. May I, may you, be free to wail aloud that God may spare us. (unless it is to draw attention to ourselves) To be able to cry that God will spare us and not have people ask, "Where is our God?" 
 So David and his men wept aloud until they had no strength left to weep. 1 Samuel 30:4
The Bible also speaks of the horns of the altar. There are many thoughts about the meaning of that and worth studying and praying and understanding. What I found here is worth sharing. http://www.independencebaptist.org/Articles/Articles/the_horns_of_the_altar.htm


"I believe the horns of the altar are projections on the corners of the altar that the sacrifices are tied to, Ps. 118:27. The corner of any structure is the strongest part. This represents the strength of the physical structure of the altar and the strength of the blood sacrifice which is on the altar.
When Adonijah (I Kings 1:50,51) caught hold of the horns of the altar, he was catching the strength, power of the altar. The same thing applied to Joab (I Kings 2:28). Both Adonijah and Joab caught hold of the horns of the altar begging for mercy for their physical lives on the strength of the spiritual (blood) sacrifice offered to God Almighty on the altar. King Solomon refused their appeal for mercy because they had both refused God's mercy for their spiritual lives through the spiritual (blood) sacrifice offered on the altar."

Apparently grasping the horns of the altar was a way of seeking sanctuary or protection when one was charged with a serious offense (1 Kings 1:50-51; 1 Kings 2:28-34  http://www.studylight.org/dic/hbd/view.cgi?number=T261 

http://www.spurgeon.org/sermons/1826.htm - another place to learn about the horns of the altar. 
May our prayers be as sweet incense to our Father's ears. 
May we grasp the horns of His altar and weep.
May we pray, God spare us, and know that He hears.
May we wail in His place of prayer, though the way is steep.

May we stay between porch and altar.
May we remember Jesus' sacrifice on our behalf.
May we weep until we can weep no longer.
May we celebrate, that in due season, we will laugh!

God blesses you who are hungry now, for you will be satisfied. God blesses you who weep now, for in due time you will laugh. Luke6:21  New Living Translation (©2007)

 Join me, between porch and altar?




Sunday, October 16, 2011

Day Twenty-Seven - Hinges

Wingdreamer is tired. A good, yet challenging photo session today with humans and their dogs wore me slap out, as we say here in the south. 

Today was a perfect autumn day. A day to be thankful for...

Everything hinges on Him.... Jesus...

 

1. a. A jointed or flexible device that allows the turning or pivoting of a part, such as a door or lid, on a stationary frame.
b. A similar structure or part, such as one that enables the valves of a bivalve mollusk to open and close.
2. A small folded paper rectangle gummed on one side, used especially to fasten stamps in an album.
3. A point or circumstance on which subsequent events depend.
v. hinged, hing·ing, hing·es
v.tr.
1. To attach by or equip with or as if with hinges or a hinge.
2. To consider or make (something) dependent on something else; predicate: "convenient and misleading fictions for hinging an argument" (Stephen Jay Gould).
v.intr. To be contingent on a single factor; depend: This plan hinges on her approval.

hinge  (hnj)

I'm going to lay my head to pillow and rest. Everything hinges on Jesus. Aaah sweet release...

G'nite...